I got asked the earlier this week, “What’s the most difficult part about having a dog?” I said “The goodbye – the pain never goes away.”
Today marks three-months since I lost my baby boy Rocky, one of the few things in my life that really mattered. I still remember everything that transpired that day as if it just happened five minutes ago. It’s something you can’t prepare for, even if you know it’s coming.
It has truly been the hardest loss I have yet encountered & although you try each day to adjust, the pain is still as profound as it was three months ago.
My heart will never not hurt. I miss you every single day, Rocky. I, unfortunately, will endure a lifetime of missing you, for the privilege of loving you my baby boy Rocky.
You’d be happy to know that I gave your most favorite person the food, treats, poop bags, light up collar, some of your medicine & some other things that you left behind to give to your pal Inga. Which I’ve been told she’s used your stuff with pride.
Rocky was so special & will never be replaced, he was an angel & I would not have changed a thing.
Rocky & I have such a tight bond. And for me to see my best friend struggle those last two days & ultimately having to make that tough decision, it’s devastating still to this day.
Rocky was the light of my life & on March 24th, the light went out.
Three months navigating through this new life without you physically here. My heart aches every single day, but I’ll never stop doing all I can to make you proud. I love you with my whole heart, Rocky. I can’t wait to see you again.
I’ll leave you with a poem that I saw & really liked, & I’m sure you dog people can appreciate this:
“And on the 9th Day, God looked down on his wide-eyed children and said they need a companion.
So God made a Dog.
God said I need somebody willing to wake up, give kisses, pee on a tree, sleep all day, wake up again, give more kisses, and then stay up till midnight basking in the glow of the television set.
So God made a Dog.
God said I need somebody willing to sit, then stay, then roll over then with no ego or complaint dress in hats they do not need and costumes they do not understand. I need somebody who can break wind without a first care or second thought. Who can chase tails, sniff crotches, fetch sticks and lift spirits with a lick. Somebody who no matter what you didn’t do, or couldn’t take, or didn’t win, or couldn’t make will love you without judgment just the same.
So God made a Dog.
God said I need somebody strong enough to pull sleds and find bombs, yet gentle enough to love babies and lead the blind. Somebody who will spend a day on a couch with a resting head and supportive eyes to lift the spirits of a broken heart.
So God made a Dog.
It had to be somebody who would remain patient and loyal even through loneliness. Somebody to care, cuddle, snuggle and nuzzle, and cheer and charm and snore and slobber and eat the trash and chase the squirrels. Somebody who would bring a family together with a selflessness of an open heart. Somebody who would bark, and then pant, and then reply with the rapid wag of a tail when their best friend says let’s go for a ride in the car.
So God made a Dog.”
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